Why?...

Everything's black,
but the world still spins in dizzying circles.
As tears cold enough put liquid hydrogen to shame
pour stubbornly down my face.
I try not to make a sound
as my sobbs become louder and more violent.
Pounding out against my chest,
they strike.
Again and again.
My mind rages war against my unwilling body,
And my heart is sucked deep into an exploding supernova of thoughts.
Why?...